Well folks, things are not going as swimmingly as I'd like today; but let's start with the 90 in 90 count. Four Down, Eighty-Six to Go I hiked 3.31 miles yesterday morning. I was tired and sore, and didn't want to; but I stomped around anyway. I probably could've gone a little farther; but I … Continue reading Fighting the Voices
addiction
Addiction is a multi-faceted mental health disorder. In my life, it has manifested in alcoholism, binge-eating, drug abuse, nicotine dependency and sex addiction. These posts document my struggles with these issues.
Rats and Danish
Okay. So. Good news, not-so-good-news, and embarrassing hilarity to share this morning. The Not-So-Good I did use the Lose It app yesterday, and ate twice before seven in the evening -- at which time I was below my daily budget of 1,275 calories. But when eight o'clock rolled around, I ate enough Chex Mix to … Continue reading Rats and Danish
S.O.S. – Lacking Motivation
I started taking my twice daily medications earlier (at six a.m./p.m. versus seven a.m./p.m.) hoping that it would make me tired earlier, and curb the binge-eating as a result. It does make me tired earlier, but did not curb the binge-eating... I just binge-eat earlier. I take Mirtazapine to induce sleep and combat night terrors … Continue reading S.O.S. – Lacking Motivation
Betrayals & Victories
There's a well-observed (but rather inexplicable) pattern in my Borderline world: If I have a really good day (mood wise), a not-so-great one is never far behind. You know that feeling you get after a raging surge of adrenaline? When the fight-or-flight hormone ebbs its way out of your blood stream, and all your left … Continue reading Betrayals & Victories
Wraiths and My Knight
Writing for me, as of late, has been difficult. I've been trying to delve into more personal narratives... to write about my past and exorcise the demons that still mercilessly stalk its dark and cursed forests. I have found that memories from that time are like water-soaked wraiths, patiently waiting for me to call on … Continue reading Wraiths and My Knight
Baitless Biter 